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March 4th, 2007
10:36 pm - to fill a few free minutes 1. I've come to realize that my last kiss....was with my fattykins kitty
2. I am listening to.... purring and electronics humming
3. I talk... about med school to everyone i meet
4. I love... unseasonably warm nights
5. My best friend(s)...will all be moving on soon
6. My first real kiss... is difficult to pinpoint without deciding what a 'real' kiss is
8. I hate it when people ask.... where i'm going next year, because I don't know, and it is marginally terrifying
9. Love is...only being able to sleep in someone else's arms
10. Marriage is... not in my (immediate) future
11. Somewhere, someone is thinking... about someone they miss very dearly
12. I'll always... wish I could spend more time with my grandma
13. I have a secret crush... on my camera
14. The last time I cried was because... I had to say goodbye to my puppybaby for 2 weeks
15. My cell phone is.... one in a million and my favorite
16. When I wake up in the morning... I have someone wagging his tail waiting anxiously for me to pet him
17. Before I go to bed... I try to read something wonderful
18. Right now I am thinking about...Jackson
19. Babies are... smelly
20. I get on myspace... once in a blue moon
21. Today I.... sadly woke up with a hangover
22. Tonight I will... go to sleep early
23. Tomorrow I will be... acting!
24. I really want to be... with my puppy...
25. Someone that will most likely repost this is... no one, but that's perfectly alright
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March 1st, 2007
12:08 am - claire i just found out that a girl I went to high school with was murdered.
shot several times in a friendly's parking lot.
she had the most beautiful voice I had ever heard live....
i found out from a group on facebook. if i had never seen the group, she would have remained in my head, singing her way into old age.
facebook.
damn.
it turns out she was killed by her partner. she had left him after he held her hostage with a handgun. a protective order against him had been filed 4 hours earlier.
75% of women who are killed by their partner are killed when they are leaving them.
i have to know that statistic for my test tomorrow.
http://content.hamptonroads.com/story.cfm?story=115958&ran=66113&tref=po
rest in peace
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January 8th, 2007
06:03 pm - new year i'm sick. i had 7 cups of tea, 4 cups of water, 5 echinacea/ vitamin C pills, 1 degongestant, 2 tylenol's, and 1 orange today. I better not be sick for long.
this year is going.to.be.awesome
I'm going to...
make 5 awesome friends make it up to 5 friends I neglected last semester play raquetball make puppy friends for my puppy eat lots of vegetables learn how to make soup not get sick find persimmons be a useful vice president party get more use out of my bike put my ballroom dancing to use
I want to...
get invisalign travel with friends on small trips and big be known for more than my huge ass get scholarships to med school eat at a fancypants restaurant spend more time with puppy and love have a dinner party make good decisions
My potential year:
January- go back to school. love my classes. hug my friends. watch snakes on a plane.
February: fill out a lot of med school paperwork. go to rochester again. go on a road trip with shivani. make good food.
March: hear back about scholarships. not get any. resign to $200,000 of debt. spend st. patrick's day at a pub. drink green beer. go to florida. sing journey on the way. a lot. and golddigger. and hand clap song.
April: decide on a med school. freak out. go on another road trip.
May: graduate. family vacation.
June: travel somewhere great.
July: prepare for the beginning and end of my life. sleep. a lot.
August: med school. august 6th. explore a new city.
September--> December: study.
i have to go sneeze now.
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October 23rd, 2006
11:40 pm - FUCKAHHHH SO BUSY OMGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
this may be my busiest semester EVER! WHYYYYY???!!!
rochester this week boca raton and miami and HONORS DOSSIER next week CRAZY work in AIDS class the week after that HISTO TEST AHHHHH the week after that Thanksgiving the week after that HISTO PAPER AHHH the week after that EXAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss the week after that!
No down time! No breathing! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
And also I love my dog. and my cat. and my boyfriend who bought me chipotle today. did your boyfriend buy you chipotle....no. shame.
my stupid photo won me $50 http://www.vcu.edu/oie/eao_ss/contest_winners.html
sleep now yay, up early boo.
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October 8th, 2006
01:02 am - updates etc. i feel overwhelmed, but I haven't even begun my interviews, tests, papers, reports, etc. why is this? I feel like every thing that happens is the straw that breaks the camel's back. bahhh too bad.
I got a dog. His name is Jackson. I love him somuchforever. He is actually pretty bad. He literally eats my homework and isn't completely housebroken. And he likes to bite a lot. He also likes to love me a lot.
I have 3 1/2 med school interviews coming up. University of South Carolina, University of Rochester, University of Miami in Miami and Boca Raton.
I almost (slash maybe have) lost my guarentee to MCV. These interviews have thus become more important.
Last year about this time I felt like I was making lots of new friends and doing lots of cool new stuff. Now I feel like all of those friends have lost interest in me and I'm doing boring stuff. Except legally buying alcohol, which (contrary to popular belief) is not overrated. I read a "Dear Abby" in the paper once about these two friends. One moved or started a new job or something and the other one kept making attempts to keep up with the friendship while her friend seemed to make no efforts. She was writing to see what she should do about her apathetic friend. Abby told her that she was a pathetic and desperate person trying to hold on to a friend who clearly doesn't want to be close with her anymore.
i am jack's letter to dear fucking abby.
I am quickly learning the art of superficial friendships. I dont think it's a bad thing actually. I think it would be worse to continue pretending that it's not. It's still hard to detach.
so, instead of waiting for med school to be forced into new social situations, I guess I should seek out interested parties for friendshipcelebration.
i wish emad was here.
and I wish that scott didnt have to work full time during school.
puppy is my new best friend. officially.
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September 11th, 2006
09:23 am - to continue the trend of whiny baby entries I'm sick.
My nose is running. I keep coughing and it feels like FIRE omg. This sucks. Who gets sick at this time of the year? ME! I need to start taking Emergen-C every day of the year.
I really want this dog. Her given name is Baby Girl, and she is a baby girl. I am so in love with herrrrr. Ahhhhh. My landlord is being a GIANT whore about all of this. Instead of just saying 'no,' she says she has the ask the owner (even though I have recently discovered that in the lease, it is actually her responsibility to make the decision about pets). So, I wait. No answer. Ok, great. Then she says she needs to talk to Debbie Sue (the woman who is fostering Baby Girl). Debbie Sue never calls back! Ahhhhh whyyy? So, I do some sleuth work, and I find out that Baby Girl and Debbie Sue will be at Petsmart on Sunday. My landlord agrees to come to see the dog. I show up earlier than my landlord and Erica and I give Baby Girl so much loving. Deborah shows up and this woman adopting cats pulls Erica and I to the side to say "Woah, your landlord looks like a bitch!" You are correct, madame. Deborah stands there with a hideous scowl repeating the same questions over and over again, like "Won't she bite my maintenance men when they come in." "Uhh.. no." (meanwhile her maintenance men have NEVER come in even though our house is falling apart)
So, this ends in "well, she seems like a nice enough dog. I'll ask the owner (the elusive Mr. Chan)." I start to ask her if she can call him tonight, when she interrupts me to yell "NO YOU CANNOT CALL MR. CHAN!!!" WHORE!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh!
She also scolded me for calling her so much about this. So, she's never going to call Mr. Chan, and I'm never going to be able to call her again.
and I'll never see Baby Girl again.
and it's raining.
AUUUUUUGGGGGGGGH EMOOOOOOOO WHINNNNNNNNE Current Mood: whiney
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September 3rd, 2006
10:00 pm - back Today seemed like a good day to start writing here again.
I saw someone drown today. It was awful.
We were walking on 89th street and a cop car almost runs us over getting to the beach entrance. We hear someone say "there's been a drowning," and we follow Mark (the EMT) onto the beach.
There's a huge crowd and someone is doing chest compressions. We get closer and I get one glimpse of him, foaming at the mouth and having someone pump violently on his chest. It's not a kid ('thank god' I think, but wondering what about him being a middle aged man makes it any better) Someone yells "Come on man! Come on!" His wife is sitting on the groud right next to this. People have their arms around her. She might be shaking. A life gaurd comes with a AED. They shock him and his body jumps. Still no pulse.
Once the paramedics got there, they told Mark he could go, so we all left. We didn't say anything walking to the car except to tell people they might not want to go down there with their little kids right then.
I think he died.
Earlier that day we were all swimming in the same exact spot as he was. We were getting pinched by 'sea fleas' so we left- in the nick of time apparently.
There happened to be an EMT and a doctor on the beach when they saw his body floating face down in the water. I'm going to get CPR certified at the first opportunity.
UPDATE: http://www.wvec.com/news/local/stories/090306cckrTopDrowning.63f0e7ed.html Current Mood: i dont even know
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February 9th, 2006
01:40 am - babies are cute today I was at MCV, shadowing a doctah [a peds cardiologist], and we were talking to this young couple with a 6 month old baby who needs open heart surgery and might die.
I hope the feeling that I got when I was leaving the room, that all these problems are so very trivial, sticks.
Also, I keep almost passing out at MCV. Not from blood or gore (I get through the open heart surgeries fine), but when it's hot in one of the rooms and I have to stand for more than 5 minutes, my vision blurs, my hearing goes, and I have to stumble out of the room and find the closest nurse to give me ice chips and a kids lolly pop. I am such a loser. A loser with hypotension? Perhaps.
where am I going to med school? Hawaii? I think yes. Stanford? That, too. MCV? Probably.
i like scott. and kitty. Current Mood: good Current Music: the predatory wasp of the palisades
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January 18th, 2006
11:48 am - Campus Connector Hello everyone.
Does anyone know how early the campus connector runs in the morning? And any ideas on how reliable they are to actually come that early.
Thanks
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January 5th, 2006
11:59 pm - i wrote this for angela lansbury CHAPTER XII 'ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE'
My turtle died in my dorm room today.
"Chin-up," my roommate Judy said.
"Yeah, why should I."
"Well, Angela, I just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico."
"You know, Judy, I think you're on to something. I'll never forget this. And when I write my autobiography, rest assured, this will be in it... on approximately page 87. I mean, that's just a guess."
"I really appreciate that, Angela. And so does Geico."
and she's getting a VCU scholarship and a Dell
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss Current Mood: geico Current Music: geico
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January 2nd, 2006
02:53 am - happy new year 2006 has arrived.
I'm in richmond. I got to see lots of friends tonight. Then they all dipped out. Mike stayed around to play two-person poker, but we just drank beer and talked about being drunk. WOAH I just leaned back adn almost fell out of my chair.
Scott comes home tomorrow WWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
New Years Eve was good times. Everyone was either throwing up or trying to make out with me or Matt (who is the best). Exceptions include Lauren and Sarah who were cute to the max and Ryry who left upsettingly early. And also the boy who was so drunk he looked mentally retarded the entire night and thought that Matt was trying to karate-duel him. WOAH. I was outside with vomiting Nicky at midnight. And then I kissed some girls and drank some liquor. Matt drove me home <3.
I miss everybody. Sam called when we were lost trying to find the party last night and I missed herrrr and that made me miss everyone. Come home! Especially all you lovers scattered about the globe. Current Mood: groggy Current Music: a quiet apartment
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December 27th, 2005
03:44 pm - Baruch Attan Edoni (or whatever) happy hanukkah
Hanukkah Harry is going to bring me a new camera or a bike. I have to let him know which one soon.
I miss Scott. I don't think I've ever waited for him to call before. weird.
I dropped my Intersession class, so now I'm just home watching sex and the city with my puppies.
I'm going to visit my Grandma in MD tomorrow. I'm secretly hoping I get to see Nabila on the way up or back.
la la la I'm going to do some laundry.
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December 13th, 2005
01:04 am - kitties good, exams bad does anyone remember when I was trying to find a home for a sweet street-kitten over the summer? anyone? well I was and then one day he disappeared.
well, I found him, safe and warm. i saw him at becca's house saturday night, and kyle told me that she and her roommates found it on the street and took it in a loved it and brushed it. I barely noticed it was the same one, and if it hadn't been for the signature broken tail, I probably wouldn't have. eeep it made me so happy. that was a good party; i hadn't talked to kyle in a while (and I'm a poet, in case you didn't know it). I might go to a GWAR show with him on new years eve. ahhhhh. there was a kid at the party wearing scrubs and I tipsily stumbled over to him and said something like "what are you a doctor, or something?" and he was like "yeah, well, a fourth year med student." I cowered in embarrassment. then he got beeped away from the party to go save a life or something and I got a glimpse of my future. except probably minus the party and plus 14 kitties and the Discovery Health Channel.
physics exam at 8 am tomorrow, CVA exam at 4, and another CVA exam at 8 am Thursday.
My CVA teacher invited all the kids in the class over for a party on Thursday night yesssssssss.
I guess I should probably study some more now. Current Mood: nerdy Current Music: quiet because lover is sleeping
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December 6th, 2005
01:13 pm - must avoid studying 40 questions about 2005.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?? yeahhhh
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? hmmm I dont know... there were a lot of good ones. my birthday party was excellent.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? there were also I lot of these... tops being taking hte MCAT and saying goodbye to friends (nabila, amy, sarah, etc)
4) Where were you when 2005 began? sarah's condo
5) Who were you with? i think I kissed becki at midnight
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? probably sarah's house again yay
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? lovers
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? i dont remember..
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? read a newspaper atleast 4 times a week. and stop being fat.
10) Did you fall in love in 2005? yes
11) If yes, with who? kitty
12) If yes, do they know? oh, she knows
13) Are you still in love with them? YES
14) You regret it? never
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? kitty and I split up for a few days after she threw up on me... but things are patched up now
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? yessss
17) Who are your favorite new friends? thao, cva friends, etc.
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? june
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? no
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? the east coast from FL to CT
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? not to death, but to distance
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? YESSSSSSSSSSSSS
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? i really liked harry potter
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? golddigger
25) What was your favorite record from 2005? what came out this year... I dont even know. i liked boy least likely to all summer, but now they remind me of the MCAT...
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? did I see any? i think Cinemasophia
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? i guess that one
28) did you drink A LOT of alcohol in 2005? wellllll
29) did you do A LOT of drugs in 2005? 'drugs' is relative
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? i wish i didnt cry in front of people so much
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? its debatable
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? i would say yes
36) How much money did you spend in 2005? a million doll-hairs
37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? Conquering (i think) the mcat
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? ::sigh::
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something? i would have eaten more cheescake
40) What are your plans for 2006? read a lot, study abroad, eat a lot Current Mood: working Current Music: journey
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December 1st, 2005
10:05 pm - oy vey I can't wait until I get to the point in my life where drama stops tearing people apart.
I can't wait until everyone around me has their hormones level off.
I can't wait until people aren't assholes and bitches anymore.
my mom tells me these things will never happen.
This has ben the most drama-filled two months of my life (high school excluded, because... come on) Current Mood: fed up with bitches Current Music: "one heavy february" -architecture in helsinki
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November 27th, 2005
12:59 pm - woah ok.
last night was becki's birthday party. the events of which are rather unclear.
but one thing is clear...
Mr. MAC was there. with jessica kramer. I wish that Sarahd had been there, because maybe she would have made it a little less awkward.
if anyone doesnt know this story, mr. mac was accused of underage relations with her, and i never believed it...
shit.
i miss my 2 <3ers in richmond... scott and kitty
i got soooo very fat this weekend. yessssssss. did I talk to someone about having small boobs and a huge ass last night.... I cant remember. Current Mood: sick Current Music: "first day of my life" -bright eyes
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November 13th, 2005
11:59 am - life augh.
I really want to go home. and sit on the couch and watch TV with my puppies. and my mom will be on the phone with my grandma justifying my coming home and failing out of school by saying "she just needed to." and scott will call me every 15 minutes, and I'll pretend not to like it, but I secretly do. and sarah will magically be home, adn we'll do a lot of cuddling and talking. and i can eat really yummy indian food at Nawab with Mike, and drive around with him spending lots of money. And then we can play cranium with the wonky boys. and I'll try to convince matt to come to VCU. and becki and lauren will come over looking way cuter than me and we'll make cute lovey noises at eachother. and then we'll all go get really drunk at sarah's condo with ryan, and everyone else who I like, and none of the creepies that I hate. and I'll say things like 'creepies' and 'wonky' and no one will question what I'm talking about. i hope ryan will be wearing that roussi hat he wore last time. then I'll go home, come in the garage door because my parents still haven't made me a copy of the key, tell my brother to turn his fucking music down, and walk up the stairs. and just as I'm ready to resign myself to a night without any more words, my mom will say "night, meggie."
I don't think I've ever missed virginia beach before. Current Mood: tired Current Music: elliot smith
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October 14th, 2005
10:29 am - dum dum DUMMMMMMM the story of my MCAT score
I get home from Fridays, knowing that the scores are posted, and there is Scott, stealing the internet from my computer to play his gammmmmmmmmmmmme. I try to calmly ask him to get off, but I can't help it, I'm freaking out.. and he's like 'oh my god.. you're so crazy' and I was like 'hell yes Im crazy, get off the fucking computer!' or something like that.
Finally he gets off, and I get on his computer. I don't know how to get on the internet on a Mac, so I freak out, opening all the little windows until the browser comes up. Then I realize I dont have the page bookmarked, so I frantically try to find it on google.
I signed in, and the page seriously took forEVER to load. Not like 'wow, it felt like forever' but seriously like a full minute went by.
I expected one more link before the score page, but there it was...
I got a 32.
My verbal score SUCKED (which surprised me because I was doing really well on the practice tests). My Physical Sciences score was a miracle, and my bio score was sooo hot.
A 32, if any of you were wondering, is pretty good. It's out of 45, so it's not like I did greaaat, but I think I'm pleased. I'm scared of my verbal score holding me back, but hopefully I won't have to take it again to remedy that.
Good thing I dont have to change career paths, because if I spent all this time studying for CVA for nothing, I'd be fucking pissed. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: "We are the Champions" -Queen
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October 9th, 2005
11:29 pm The last post was definitely not me, my account was hijacked by John and Emad.
That said, I still think they're the sexiest guys I have ever met in my life.
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11:25 pm My name is Megan Shandelson, and I am the sneeziest person in the world.
The guy in the star trek uniform holding a teddy bear? That's my boyfriend.
Also, John Michelli is the most awesomest person alive. I wish I could be him. He's almost as sexy as Emad Maghsoudi! Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: aqua - i'm a barbie girl
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