is there a doctor in the house?

to fill a few free minutes

2007-03-05T03:44:36Z

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss....was with my fattykins kitty

2. I am listening to.... purring and electronics humming

3. I talk... about med school to everyone i meet

4. I love... unseasonably warm nights

5. My best friend(s)...will all be moving on soon

6. My first real kiss... is difficult to pinpoint without deciding what a 'real' kiss is

8. I hate it when people ask.... where i'm going next year, because I don't know, and it is marginally terrifying

9. Love is...only being able to sleep in someone else's arms

10. Marriage is... not in my (immediate) future

11. Somewhere, someone is thinking... about someone they miss very dearly

12. I'll always... wish I could spend more time with my grandma

13. I have a secret crush... on my camera

14. The last time I cried was because... I had to say goodbye to my puppybaby for 2 weeks

15. My cell phone is.... one in a million and my favorite

16. When I wake up in the morning... I have someone wagging his tail waiting anxiously for me to pet him

17. Before I go to bed... I try to read something wonderful

18. Right now I am thinking about...Jackson

19. Babies are... smelly

20. I get on myspace... once in a blue moon

21. Today I.... sadly woke up with a hangover

22. Tonight I will... go to sleep early

23. Tomorrow I will be... acting!

24. I really want to be... with my puppy...

25. Someone that will most likely repost this is... no one, but that's perfectly alright

claire

2007-03-01T05:21:31Z

i just found out that a girl I went to high school with was murdered.

shot several times in a friendly's parking lot.

she had the most beautiful voice I had ever heard live....

i found out from a group on facebook. if i had never seen the group, she would have remained in my head, singing her way into old age.

facebook.

damn.

it turns out she was killed by her partner. she had left him after he held her hostage with a handgun. a protective order against him had been filed 4 hours earlier.

75% of women who are killed by their partner are killed when they are leaving them.

i have to know that statistic for my test tomorrow.

http://content.hamptonroads.com/story.cfm?story=115958&ran=66113&tref=po

rest in peace

new year

2007-01-08T23:28:49Z

i'm sick. i had 7 cups of tea, 4 cups of water, 5 echinacea/ vitamin C pills, 1 degongestant, 2 tylenol's, and 1 orange today. I better not be sick for long.

this year is going.to.be.awesome

I'm going to...

make 5 awesome friends
make it up to 5 friends I neglected last semester
play raquetball
make puppy friends for my puppy
eat lots of vegetables
learn how to make soup
not get sick
find persimmons
be a useful vice president
party
get more use out of my bike
put my ballroom dancing to use

I want to...

get invisalign
travel with friends on small trips and big
be known for more than my huge ass
get scholarships to med school
eat at a fancypants restaurant
spend more time with puppy and love
have a dinner party
make good decisions

My potential year:

January- go back to school. love my classes. hug my friends. watch snakes on a plane.

February: fill out a lot of med school paperwork. go to rochester again. go on a road trip with shivani. make good food.

March: hear back about scholarships. not get any. resign to $200,000 of debt. spend st. patrick's day at a pub. drink green beer. go to florida. sing journey on the way. a lot. and golddigger. and hand clap song.

April: decide on a med school. freak out. go on another road trip.

May: graduate. family vacation.

June: travel somewhere great.

July: prepare for the beginning and end of my life. sleep. a lot.

August: med school. august 6th. explore a new city.

September--> December: study.

i have to go sneeze now.

FUCKAHHHH

2006-10-24T03:42:57Z

SO BUSY OMGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

this may be my busiest semester EVER! WHYYYYY???!!!

rochester this week
boca raton and miami and HONORS DOSSIER next week
CRAZY work in AIDS class the week after that
HISTO TEST AHHHHH the week after that
Thanksgiving the week after that
HISTO PAPER AHHH the week after that
EXAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss the week after that!

No down time! No breathing! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And also I love my dog. and my cat. and my boyfriend who bought me chipotle today. did your boyfriend buy you chipotle....no. shame.

my stupid photo won me $50
http://www.vcu.edu/oie/eao_ss/contest_winners.html

sleep now yay, up early boo.

updates etc.

2006-10-08T01:30:12Z

i feel overwhelmed, but I haven't even begun my interviews, tests, papers, reports, etc. why is this? I feel like every thing that happens is the straw that breaks the camel's back. bahhh too bad.

I got a dog. His name is Jackson. I love him somuchforever. He is actually pretty bad. He literally eats my homework and isn't completely housebroken. And he likes to bite a lot. He also likes to love me a lot.

I have 3 1/2 med school interviews coming up. University of South Carolina, University of Rochester, University of Miami in Miami and Boca Raton.

I almost (slash maybe have) lost my guarentee to MCV. These interviews have thus become more important.

Last year about this time I felt like I was making lots of new friends and doing lots of cool new stuff. Now I feel like all of those friends have lost interest in me and I'm doing boring stuff. Except legally buying alcohol, which (contrary to popular belief) is not overrated. I read a "Dear Abby" in the paper once about these two friends. One moved or started a new job or something and the other one kept making attempts to keep up with the friendship while her friend seemed to make no efforts. She was writing to see what she should do about her apathetic friend. Abby told her that she was a pathetic and desperate person trying to hold on to a friend who clearly doesn't want to be close with her anymore.

i am jack's letter to dear fucking abby.

I am quickly learning the art of superficial friendships. I dont think it's a bad thing actually. I think it would be worse to continue pretending that it's not. It's still hard to detach.

so, instead of waiting for med school to be forced into new social situations, I guess I should seek out interested parties for friendshipcelebration.

i wish emad was here.

and I wish that scott didnt have to work full time during school.

puppy is my new best friend. officially.

to continue the trend of whiny baby entries

2006-09-11T13:29:14Z

I'm sick.

My nose is running. I keep coughing and it feels like FIRE omg. This sucks. Who gets sick at this time of the year? ME! I need to start taking Emergen-C every day of the year.

I really want this dog. Her given name is Baby Girl, and she is a baby girl. I am so in love with herrrrr. Ahhhhh.
My landlord is being a GIANT whore about all of this. Instead of just saying 'no,' she says she has the ask the owner (even though I have recently discovered that in the lease, it is actually her responsibility to make the decision about pets). So, I wait. No answer. Ok, great. Then she says she needs to talk to Debbie Sue (the woman who is fostering Baby Girl). Debbie Sue never calls back! Ahhhhh whyyy? So, I do some sleuth work, and I find out that Baby Girl and Debbie Sue will be at Petsmart on Sunday. My landlord agrees to come to see the dog. I show up earlier than my landlord and Erica and I give Baby Girl so much loving. Deborah shows up and this woman adopting cats pulls Erica and I to the side to say "Woah, your landlord looks like a bitch!" You are correct, madame. Deborah stands there with a hideous scowl repeating the same questions over and over again, like "Won't she bite my maintenance men when they come in." "Uhh.. no." (meanwhile her maintenance men have NEVER come in even though our house is falling apart)

So, this ends in "well, she seems like a nice enough dog. I'll ask the owner (the elusive Mr. Chan)."
I start to ask her if she can call him tonight, when she interrupts me to yell "NO YOU CANNOT CALL MR. CHAN!!!" WHORE!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh!

She also scolded me for calling her so much about this. So, she's never going to call Mr. Chan, and I'm never going to be able to call her again.

and I'll never see Baby Girl again.

and it's raining.

AUUUUUUGGGGGGGGH EMOOOOOOOO WHINNNNNNNNE

back

2006-09-04T02:10:56Z

Today seemed like a good day to start writing here again.

I saw someone drown today. It was awful.

We were walking on 89th street and a cop car almost runs us over getting to the beach entrance. We hear someone say "there's been a drowning," and we follow Mark (the EMT) onto the beach.

There's a huge crowd and someone is doing chest compressions. We get closer and I get one glimpse of him, foaming at the mouth and having someone pump violently on his chest. It's not a kid ('thank god' I think, but wondering what about him being a middle aged man makes it any better) Someone yells "Come on man! Come on!" His wife is sitting on the groud right next to this. People have their arms around her. She might be shaking. A life gaurd comes with a AED. They shock him and his body jumps. Still no pulse.

Once the paramedics got there, they told Mark he could go, so we all left. We didn't say anything walking to the car except to tell people they might not want to go down there with their little kids right then.

I think he died.

Earlier that day we were all swimming in the same exact spot as he was. We were getting pinched by 'sea fleas' so we left- in the nick of time apparently.

There happened to be an EMT and a doctor on the beach when they saw his body floating face down in the water. I'm going to get CPR certified at the first opportunity.

UPDATE: http://www.wvec.com/news/local/stories/090306cckrTopDrowning.63f0e7ed.html

babies are cute

2006-02-09T06:46:21Z

today I was at MCV, shadowing a doctah [a peds cardiologist], and we were talking to this young couple with a 6 month old baby who needs open heart surgery and might die.

I hope the feeling that I got when I was leaving the room, that all these problems are so very trivial, sticks.

Also, I keep almost passing out at MCV. Not from blood or gore (I get through the open heart surgeries fine), but when it's hot in one of the rooms and I have to stand for more than 5 minutes, my vision blurs, my hearing goes, and I have to stumble out of the room and find the closest nurse to give me ice chips and a kids lolly pop. I am such a loser. A loser with hypotension? Perhaps.

where am I going to med school? Hawaii? I think yes. Stanford? That, too. MCV? Probably.

i like scott. and kitty.

Campus Connector

2006-01-18T16:49:23Z

Hello everyone.

Does anyone know how early the campus connector runs in the morning? And any ideas on how reliable they are to actually come that early.

Thanks

i wrote this for angela lansbury

2006-01-06T05:00:08Z

CHAPTER XII
'ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE'

My turtle died in my dorm room today.

"Chin-up," my roommate Judy said.

"Yeah, why should I."

"Well, Angela, I just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico."

"You know, Judy, I think you're on to something. I'll never forget this. And when I write my autobiography, rest assured, this will be in it... on approximately page 87. I mean, that's just a guess."

"I really appreciate that, Angela. And so does Geico."

and she's getting a VCU scholarship and a Dell

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss

happy new year

2006-01-02T08:04:47Z

2006 has arrived.

I'm in richmond. I got to see lots of friends tonight. Then they all dipped out. Mike stayed around to play two-person poker, but we just drank beer and talked about being drunk. WOAH I just leaned back adn almost fell out of my chair.

Scott comes home tomorrow WWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

New Years Eve was good times. Everyone was either throwing up or trying to make out with me or Matt (who is the best). Exceptions include Lauren and Sarah who were cute to the max and Ryry who left upsettingly early. And also the boy who was so drunk he looked mentally retarded the entire night and thought that Matt was trying to karate-duel him. WOAH. I was outside with vomiting Nicky at midnight. And then I kissed some girls and drank some liquor. Matt drove me home <3.

I miss everybody. Sam called when we were lost trying to find the party last night and I missed herrrr and that made me miss everyone. Come home! Especially all you lovers scattered about the globe.

Baruch Attan Edoni (or whatever)

2005-12-27T21:07:06Z

happy hanukkah

Hanukkah Harry is going to bring me a new camera or a bike. I have to let him know which one soon.

I miss Scott. I don't think I've ever waited for him to call before. weird.

I dropped my Intersession class, so now I'm just home watching sex and the city with my puppies.

I'm going to visit my Grandma in MD tomorrow. I'm secretly hoping I get to see Nabila on the way up or back.

la la la I'm going to do some laundry.

kitties good, exams bad

2005-12-13T06:20:26Z

does anyone remember when I was trying to find a home for a sweet street-kitten over the summer? anyone? well I was and then one day he disappeared.

well, I found him, safe and warm. i saw him at becca's house saturday night, and kyle told me that she and her roommates found it on the street and took it in a loved it and brushed it. I barely noticed it was the same one, and if it hadn't been for the signature broken tail, I probably wouldn't have. eeep it made me so happy. that was a good party; i hadn't talked to kyle in a while (and I'm a poet, in case you didn't know it). I might go to a GWAR show with him on new years eve. ahhhhh. there was a kid at the party wearing scrubs and I tipsily stumbled over to him and said something like "what are you a doctor, or something?" and he was like "yeah, well, a fourth year med student." I cowered in embarrassment. then he got beeped away from the party to go save a life or something and I got a glimpse of my future. except probably minus the party and plus 14 kitties and the Discovery Health Channel.

physics exam at 8 am tomorrow, CVA exam at 4, and another CVA exam at 8 am Thursday.

My CVA teacher invited all the kids in the class over for a party on Thursday night yesssssssss.

I guess I should probably study some more now.

must avoid studying

2005-12-06T18:28:40Z

40 questions about 2005.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you??
yeahhhh

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
hmmm I dont know... there were a lot of good ones. my birthday party was excellent.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
there were also I lot of these... tops being taking hte MCAT and saying goodbye to friends (nabila, amy, sarah, etc)

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
sarah's condo

5) Who were you with?
i think I kissed becki at midnight

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
probably sarah's house again yay

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
lovers

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
i dont remember..

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
read a newspaper atleast 4 times a week. and stop being fat.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
yes

11) If yes, with who?
kitty

12) If yes, do they know?
oh, she knows

13) Are you still in love with them?
YES

14) You regret it?
never

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
kitty and I split up for a few days after she threw up on me... but things are patched up now

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yessss

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
thao, cva friends, etc.

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
june

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
no

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
the east coast from FL to CT

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
not to death, but to distance

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
i really liked harry potter

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
golddigger

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
what came out this year... I dont even know. i liked boy least likely to all summer, but now they remind me of the MCAT...

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
did I see any? i think Cinemasophia

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
i guess that one

28) did you drink A LOT of alcohol in 2005?
wellllll

29) did you do A LOT of drugs in 2005?
'drugs' is relative

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
i wish i didnt cry in front of people so much

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
its debatable

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
i would say yes

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
a million doll-hairs

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
Conquering (i think) the mcat

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
::sigh::

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something?
i would have eaten more cheescake

40) What are your plans for 2006?
read a lot, study abroad, eat a lot

oy vey

2005-12-02T03:10:11Z

I can't wait until I get to the point in my life where drama stops tearing people apart.

I can't wait until everyone around me has their hormones level off.

I can't wait until people aren't assholes and bitches anymore.

my mom tells me these things will never happen.

This has ben the most drama-filled two months of my life (high school excluded, because... come on)

woah

2005-11-27T18:16:36Z

ok.

last night was becki's birthday party. the events of which are rather unclear.

but one thing is clear...

Mr. MAC was there. with jessica kramer. I wish that Sarahd had been there, because maybe she would have made it a little less awkward.

if anyone doesnt know this story, mr. mac was accused of underage relations with her, and i never believed it...

shit.

i miss my 2 <3ers in richmond... scott and kitty

i got soooo very fat this weekend. yessssssss. did I talk to someone about having small boobs and a huge ass last night.... I cant remember.

life

2005-11-13T17:15:08Z

augh.

I really want to go home. and sit on the couch and watch TV with my puppies. and my mom will be on the phone with my grandma justifying my coming home and failing out of school by saying "she just needed to." and scott will call me every 15 minutes, and I'll pretend not to like it, but I secretly do. and sarah will magically be home, adn we'll do a lot of cuddling and talking. and i can eat really yummy indian food at Nawab with Mike, and drive around with him spending lots of money. And then we can play cranium with the wonky boys. and I'll try to convince matt to come to VCU. and becki and lauren will come over looking way cuter than me and we'll make cute lovey noises at eachother. and then we'll all go get really drunk at sarah's condo with ryan, and everyone else who I like, and none of the creepies that I hate. and I'll say things like 'creepies' and 'wonky' and no one will question what I'm talking about. i hope ryan will be wearing that roussi hat he wore last time. then I'll go home, come in the garage door because my parents still haven't made me a copy of the key, tell my brother to turn his fucking music down, and walk up the stairs. and just as I'm ready to resign myself to a night without any more words, my mom will say "night, meggie."

I don't think I've ever missed virginia beach before.

dum dum DUMMMMMMM

2005-10-14T14:58:31Z

the story of my MCAT score

I get home from Fridays, knowing that the scores are posted, and there is Scott, stealing the internet from my computer to play his gammmmmmmmmmmmme. I try to calmly ask him to get off, but I can't help it, I'm freaking out.. and he's like 'oh my god.. you're so crazy' and I was like 'hell yes Im crazy, get off the fucking computer!' or something like that.

Finally he gets off, and I get on his computer. I don't know how to get on the internet on a Mac, so I freak out, opening all the little windows until the browser comes up. Then I realize I dont have the page bookmarked, so I frantically try to find it on google.

I signed in, and the page seriously took forEVER to load. Not like 'wow, it felt like forever' but seriously like a full minute went by.

I expected one more link before the score page, but there it was...

I got a 32.

My verbal score SUCKED (which surprised me because I was doing really well on the practice tests). My Physical Sciences score was a miracle, and my bio score was sooo hot.

A 32, if any of you were wondering, is pretty good. It's out of 45, so it's not like I did greaaat, but I think I'm pleased. I'm scared of my verbal score holding me back, but hopefully I won't have to take it again to remedy that.

Good thing I dont have to change career paths, because if I spent all this time studying for CVA for nothing, I'd be fucking pissed.

ilovekitties @ 2005-10-09T23:29:00

2005-10-10T03:30:25Z

The last post was definitely not me, my account was hijacked by John and Emad.

That said, I still think they're the sexiest guys I have ever met in my life.

ilovekitties @ 2005-10-09T23:25:00

2005-10-10T03:29:29Z

My name is Megan Shandelson, and I am the sneeziest person in the world.

The guy in the star trek uniform holding a teddy bear? That's my boyfriend.

Also, John Michelli is the most awesomest person alive. I wish I could be him. He's almost as sexy as Emad Maghsoudi!

wow

2005-09-16T03:31:56Z

some key birthday compliments from my favorite boys in the world:

emadocrat: megan you are verrryy dear to both of us
emadocrat: and i feel like i am reallly lucky to have friends like you

...

emadocrat: i feel like some parts of my life have been wasted
emadocrat: because i didnt have friends like you

emadocrat: you are amaazing
emadocrat: and i feel like just because i am your friend
emadocrat: that makes me amaazing

You're compassionate, courageous, and beautiful. There's this heart-quickening, playful gleam in your eyes when you smile, which is often, so that people are instantly disarmed into helpless affection when they meet you.

...

So here's to you. Happy Birthday.

...

DrPolkaDots: i luvrrrrrrrre you
emadocrat: ewww
emadocrat: (throwing up)

i love you john and emad <3

BIRTHDAYYY!

2005-09-12T21:42:37Z

I'M HAVING A BIRTHDAY PARTY!!

THIS FRIDAY (the 16th) AT RAPHIE'S

CALL OR IM ME FOR DIRECTIONS

STARTS AROUND 9-ish
BRING SOME BOOZE AND A PRESENT

Oh, and some good music

meep

2005-09-05T01:33:39Z

quick update:

-the mcats were AWFULLLLLLLLLL and I'm either going to have to take it again or pick a new career

-i had a 4 day summer, and it rained...

-school has begun

and here is somthing from becki lee

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet muhahahaha26? highschool theater
2.~What would you do if you had never met moose_face? cry a lot
3.~What do you honestly think of not_jones? i miss him
4.~Would or did tonighttomorrow and manaskhole go out? HA
5.~Have you ever liked raphiet? forever
6.~If onefoolishline died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that I wish I spent more time with her
7.~Would drawnthatway and scbydooman make a good couple? noooo
8.~Describe thejohnmeister in 3 words: tall, dark, and fat
9.~Do you think itsjustcurtis is hot? of course
10.~Would onefoolishline and macoto make a lovely couple? quite possibly
11.~What do you think of when you see manaskhole? jew
12.~Tell me something humiliating about scbydooman: ?
13.~Do you know any of glowinglights's family members? i met her mom once
14.~What's ourlasthero's favorite color? i have no idea
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is teamjeffries? 10
16.~What would you do if not_ice just professed their undying love for you? inquire as to what drug he was taking
17.~What language does tonighttomorrow speak? engish and le francais
18.~Who is ourlasthero going out with? i dont know
19.~Is onlyonewish a boy or a girl? a sharkface
20.~Would maeeery and not_ice make a good couple? noooo
21.~Who do you think ourlasthero would be great with from this list? manaskhole
22.~When was the last time you talked to itsjustcurtis? last week
23.~What is raphiet's favorite band? one that i dont like, but i like her
24.~Does drawnthatway have any siblings? a sister
25.~Would you ever date glowinglights? yessss
26.~Would you ever date thejohnmeister? i dont date fat people
27.~Is ourlasthero single? i dont know
28.~What is ourlasthero's last name? achilles
29.~What is maeeery's middle name? ohh it starts with an s
30~What is not_jones's fantasy? probably something involving mac and cheese
31.~Where does onlyonewish live? in cutesville
32.~Would you make out with muhahahaha26? yessss
33.~Are moose_face and glowinglights best friends? no
34.~Does thejohnmeister like ourlasthero? they dont know eachother
35.~How did you meet maeeery? wg 4lyphe
36.~Is itsjustcurtis older than you? yes
37.~Is macoto the sexiest person alive? he is a male model...

Update time

2005-08-09T14:30:00Z

This is what is going through my head 24 hours a day:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

The MCATS are really starting to get to me. I don't sleep well because I wake up thinking about it. I've started having nightmares (I think) but I wake up and can't remember them. My neck hurts, I'm picking at my cuticles, and my eye is starting to twitch.

Most of the time, I don't feel that nervous, though. But stress always shows up physically for me. Atleast I'm not having panic attacks. I hear stories about kids sitting down to take the MCAT, having a panic attack, and fainting. FUCK.

In lighter news, Emad and I went on a date Sunday night. and it was HOT. We went to an orgy (of food and discussion) at his boss's house in northern virginia. There were three cuddly kitties there and I lovvvved them so much. Emad says that they lurvvved me, but I dont know if that's true. Then John was too cool for school, so we went home.

Ok, so my birthday is September 15th. I'm having a party on the 16th. I dont know where or when or what, but make plans accordingly, because I will not tolerate flaking out at my krunkfest party 05.
I want to have a theme... like 80's, or Hookerfest...or something. Suggestions please.

Also, please note that I wish there was an option for "MCAT" under the 'mood' dropdown. The icon would look like my face crushed under a giant mitochondria.

i need sleep

2005-07-29T21:45:17Z

most stressful SGA meeting everrrrrrrr. I feel like a bad person. and I need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

also, please note, that I can't stand it when people break plans. it might be my biggest pet peeve. but probably only when it's for lame reasons. bah.

bush gardens sunday. yay.